Got BRCA results today..it is negative which means I do not carry the mutated gene to put my precious children at a higher risk of developing breast cancer! :)

We've hit a bump in the road with the chemo - allergic reaction FOR SURE...

So as you can see from my earlier post I was SUPER excited to be able to be given another chance on the carbo! YAY! BUT!!!!!!!Just wanna tell you they doubled drugs in the beginning ..the kind that help with allergic reactions but.... As soon as it started so did many reactions. I am not sure if you remember from my last post about how I was just about finished with my bag and I had a coughing fit and my throat started closing...WELL....as soon as the bag started I started coughing and actually before I started the Carbo my nurse said, "I am bringing in some goodies just in case"...ok...I am soo thinking you are so not going to need them; HOW wrong I was-like I am in control of this process -lol! So as soon as I started the Carbo bag in a mere 15 minutes or so...I started coughing ...my eyes got real itchy I started breaking out in hives all over my body...itching EVERYWHERE, very flushed and in a short amount of time I could hardly see my face was so swollen, my nose was closed up...I saw my nurse through my window and I said I might need you in a minute..she ran in along with other nurses and they immediately unplugged the carbo and started giving me more meds.They said, "Of course your doc just left to do rounds at the hospital". Mike later told me he could read their mouths and they were asking if they should call 911?!?!?!? Or give me an epi pen(sp). Doc immediately turned around and came back and told nurses to hold off on 911 and epi pen. He came in and said "No more Carbo" My Beloved was standing next to me and I could see him reaching for tissue as he was upset to which kind of scared me. Of course, when the doc said this I started crying saying, "But I only have 2 more and it was working sooo good!" He said there are other meds???!!! I feel that God maybe saying "you've had enough of these and I will intervene and take care of the problem..where is your faith?" I do know that He has great plans for me. Like here I am thinking I've got it covered with these meds...but how wrong could I be!!!! He is in control of this entire process. Isn't it cool how HE works things out the way he does and provides you with the encouragement you need when you need it!!!!!!! Yesterday in my Quiet Time - Bible study part ..I am doing Experiencing the Words of Jesus: Hearing His Voice, Trusting His Words by Max Lucado! And the things I studied were exactly what I am needing then and today!! God is so good!!! :) One of the things I transferred into my journal was this, "Even when it's difficult. Even when it seems impossible. Even when we don't understand why" Jesus says in Mark 9:23 (MSG) "If? There are no 'ifs' among believers. Anything can happen." "Do not be afraid, only believe." Mark 5:36(NIV). One more thing from Mr. Lucado's bible study that just touched me and/or I feel God was encouraging me not to give up... "God is watching. For all you know, right at this moment he may be telling the Angel to move the stone[cancer possibly :)]. The check may be in the mail. The apology may be in the making. The job contract may be on the desk. Don't quit. For if you do, you may miss the answer to your prayers. God still sends Angels. And God still moves stones." Friends, let me let you in on something - I will NEVER quit even if I have to fight for any drug until I look like Will Smith when he ate the shrimp in that movie "Hitch" - lol..well at least that is what Mike told me I looked like..Because I asked him why he was upset and he said you looked like WS and a boxer at the end of a boxing match and I don't like it when you look hurt or sad :( BUt we are ok.. Moving right along to what God has in store and obviously this is part of the journey..so I'll take it!!!! One more verse to share with you...one of our pastor's son preached this week, also one of my bestfriend's son and he used a verse so many of us know but this time I took it differently. I am not trying to change the meaning but I feel like this I needed and it is just so true! I love it! It is our family bible verse for the week - Hebrews 12:1 (NIV) "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us." Never thought it so...just like traumatic events that would be part of your race, that my race would involve one with cancer - crazy!!! Anyways, I am good now..still a little itchy..a bit tired from a crazy day and chemo and a bit wired from extra steroids on top of the ones I already take- blah ;)! So I am off to take some more benadryl before bed per my nurse just in case there is any carbo still left in my system! I am sooo thankful for such an AWESOME team of nurses who I love sooooooo much and my Doc for gving me the benefit of the doubt and caring AND for some of the most AWESOME prayer warriors, friends, brothers and sisters in Christ that I know who we get to stand in the gap for one another...no words!!!!!!! Running with PERSEVERANCE the race marked out for me! Catherine :)