Today's stuff - 8.26.09

Today was not fun! I want to first thank you for all the encouraging words and emails and PRAYERS, for you sharing it with all your peeps and for the facebook page for encouragement - I haven't checked it out yet but I will!!!! I cannot tell you how much that means to me right now!!!!!!!!!! I have been reading what everyone has written on my phone all day waiting in Dr. offices for "this and that" and it has given me strength to not just fall apart right now when really that is exactly what I feel like doing!!!!! I want to update you all because I know that there are so many people praying and I am so thankful, BUT I need more and I am going to write some specifics and if you see in anyway how to pray ...please do it! I do not need pity, just PRAYER!!!! Oh and those of you who said you could help in anyway with my kids or taking me to appointments - don't be surprised if I call! Today I met with the surgeon for biopsies of my breast and lymph nodes b/c they are swollen. Before we went back he podded and poked and said the same thing the radiologist said "This is worrisome, and seems to be agressive" He said he was going to do something he does not normally do which was to have the pathologist stop what they are doing and get my results instead of waiting 2 days. So they came back and he said It is cancer! :( He said it is the most typical type of breast cancer BUT the way it is showing it self is very aggressive. I asked him about a mastectomy next week which is what the radiologist said may be happening AND he said with the way the cancer is showing itsef it would be very difficult to do a mastectomy right now! SO he immediately made me an appointment with the oncologist and they saw me after hours. AND the oncologist says "This is worrisome and seems to be very aggressive" :( He said that first we are going to do an MRI on both of my breasts, a PET scan to see if it has gone to any other part of my body and a test on my heart to make sure it is strong enough for the chemo.(I have never had any problems before so I pray my heart is in GREAT shape)! They are going to try and set them up tomorrow or Friday and then from there I will be starting chemo. This is to try and decrease the size of the cancer to be able to have a mastectomy then I will be doing more chemo and radiation! He said that he did not see 4-5 spots on my breast to be worried about but at least 10! I pray that it has not spread anywhere else in my body! I really pray that they are still wrong and maybe the PET scan and MRI will show nothing ...but physically you can see that something is growing there :( So I wanted to share my burdens with my family and friends!!!!! Thank you sooooo much!!!! Still praising HIM in this storm!!!!!!!!!!!! Catherine