The cancer HAS spread...I have metastatic disease...

I would just like to walk you through my afternoon...since most of you and your prayers have pretty much been with me all day and I am just at peace for some crazy reason even with my results!!!! Well, I know why I am at peace...my brothers and sisters have been praying over me and my Heavenly Father has NEVER left me and NEVER will!!! I have been super stressed out....I had my port put in yesterday and it went fine...I must tell you that my surgeon came in to speak with me before the surgery and had shared that the cancer had spread...but didn't have all the info...needless to say they had to give me some meds to calm me down b/c I was like what do I need to do...I have to get through this, I have 2 babies at home...and my surgeon was so comforting and saying it's going to be a hard road and they are going to do everything they can to take care of me- I really do trust him..he is a BELIEVER and said the rest is up to God!!!!!! So today we had to go in and we got there and I said to my beloved "Let's just wait a minute and listen to this song( I can't even remember what it was called) but the last part was "we just want to praise you" And I do want to praise HIM ...that in all this he receives all the glory..then we prayed silently b/c we obviously couldn't talk out loud at the moment... Anyways, the results are that it is in my right breast( which we knew), in two lymph nodes, two spots in my upper right lung and 4 spots on my liver and they saw a place on my left shoulder, but I told them I think it's just an injury b/c right before all the chaos started I started taebo and all kinds of crazy stuff to try and get in shape :)!!!!! The doctor says that he thinks that the cancer in that shoulder is in the bone if it is not an injury - PLEASE pray it is just an injury!!!!!!!! This is alot and not curable I understand, but I told him that I pray that they are going to be "rubbing their eyes" saying whoa ...where did it go?!!! I asked him if we could eventually do surgery on my liver if the cancer responds well to the chemo and he said that he hopes that it shrinks to where we cannot even see it!!! That's what I am talking about!!!! He asked if I had talked to my surgeon about getting a port put in ...I pulled my shirt down, said here it is ...let's get started and he went to check to see if we could...BUT we couldn't b/c I had to get some lab work done.. Went to check out and they said I couldn't come until Wed b/c they were packed...and a lady behind her said it would be so busy that I wouldn't want to come...Of course, I broke down and said I have cancer all in my body and I have got to get started, I have two babies at home ...and they were like wait a minute and they worked it out...so I get to start chemo on Tues and will be there about 5 hours! Those 3 ladies made my day and I am so thankful for them pushing to get me in!!!!!! Can I just tell you that I am thankful that it was not in my brain - Praise God! And I pray it doesn't go there!!!!!!!! My God is so good and he has great plans for me!!! I told my Doc I was going to fight, and fight and fight and the rest was up to God and prayed that he would heal me along with all of you if you will!!!!!!!! So MIke and I haven't been on a long date really since babies...so Tuesday we will have a chemo date! I ask that you will pray for the cancer to react to the chemo...I will be doing it once a week and then if we physically notice that it is growing smaller(since we can physically see that it has gotten bigger) then it will taper to 3 weeks! I will keep you all updated and ask that you please continue to pray for me!!! YOur sister in Christ!!!!!!!! Catherine