Feeling pretty good...

I just wanted to let you all know that I have not had any real side effects from the Herceptin treatments only!!! Thank you all sooooo much for praying for me!!!! I have a little virtigo but apparently that is "normal" since my blood count is going down...not sure if I said that right but that is what I was told!!! So I have another Herceptin only treatment tomorrow - Wed morning at 10:30ish. It does make me tired when I am there...b/c they put benadryl in my bag so that I will not have an allergic reaction. Well, I got out of the shower yesterday and had about 20 pieces of hair in my hand and my head has been real itchy...so the bald head is on it's way!!!! I don't know why I don't just shave it all off already...it's like I am holding out....I am not sure how I will react when it does fall out and/or I get my head shaved...surely there will be tears...I am thinking it will make this crazy cancer thing "look" more real!!!!! But we are praying that this cancer is going away and I am thinking - or it could all be in my head ...but I think the lump and the "nests" (or cancer mass) may be getting smaller- I really don't think it is in my head!!!! I pray not!!!!!!!!!!! I just want it gone and pray that is in the Masters plan!!! I mean I think I look like a crazy person in my car sometimes just crying out to my Father ....pleading with Him to please, please, please HEAL me completely!!!!!!!!!! Ya'll- How do I say thank you to EVERYONE...I mean EVERYONE....for the prayers, for the fundraising, for the gifts, for the cards, for the emails, for just EVERYTHING.....It is just coming at me from every angle and I just want everyone to know that I am just sooooo thankful and I don't really know what to say or I would have said it!!!!!!!! I thank God for all of ya'll - FOR REAL!!!!!! Well, there is something that I wanna share that my sweet friend Mindy Waddel Hiers wrote. She shared it with me last week...it's a poem that she wrote that God gave her!!!!! I had to ask her multiple times if I could share and she finally gave in ;) I have to just tell you that my parents were here when I got it and I read it to them...hardly able to get through it ...we were all crying and my Micah was in the room and says "What's wrong with Papa...why is papa crying" And I thought what about me and maamaa...I guess he is done with our tears :) GRIP! In my grip I found A lump that had crept up without a sound. August 25th they said the results were bad. I stood there thinking of my babies and became so very sad. My Precious Ones, In my grip I’d always held. I knew for sure that I would not let them down. My Beloved stood beside me doing all that he could do. In his loving grip, without him what would I ever do? That night I wrote my facebook note. asking for prayer as I sat there and shook. By morning the prayer warriors were out in full force. They asked God for my healing and offered whatever it took. The new results came and confirmed our worst fear. The cancer had spread, for that much was clear. I said, “Let’s get started, why the wait” I was ready to fight this even though I’d been told it was no piece of cake.. When they said, “Not till Wednesday” I said, “I can’t wait anymore! You see, My Babies are waiting to play with me on the den floor.” God grabbed me and held me in his mighty grip, while Angels disguised as nurses moved things around. Now Tuesday is the appointment that they found. Tuesday will be the day we fight this barbarian. With God’s help, Cancer’s face will be smeared into the ground! Forever Grateful for all you Prayer Warriors - claiming Psalm 118 that this barbarian(s) will be smeared into the ground for a full and free life!!!!!!